Sometimes we get so caught up by life itself, we tend to forget about these three important things. Life comes, life goes, life continues.
In the past 9 months of not posting any blogs there have been several huge events take place in our lives. All of which brings me to this statement, the reminder that life is SO fragile and SO important.
In September we celebrated my dad (Marco A. Fuentes') last birthday on earth with tons of family, man what a great birthday it was, he was so blessed to have his family gathered in his home for such a birthday. we also celebrated my father in laws birthday, my husbands birthday.
In October we had quite a roller coaster month filled with ups and downs. My family and I had joined my mom and dad to a healing conference by Billy Burke and in hopes that God would do miracles in our lives, needless to say we were in need of some huge miracles, miracles no "man"could perform! it had to be supernatural, it had to be us trusting in God. We were ready, prepared, and willing to do whatever God wanted just to see Him work in our family. On that weekend Phil had received full healing from his knee (some of you will know this) but this was HUGE! Phil had never received physical healing before and that was in fact the only thing he was missing from God after having knee pain for years.We also were extremely happy to hear that my father was also healed from cancer, on that day specifically my dad told us that he had a vision of himself on an operating table and God operating on his body- he was on the ground for a long time (we knew God was doing something) in that week he went to the doctor to confirm this healing, with a doctor skeptical and hesitant who at first insisted that this was not going to happen, my dad was determined he would not go another week without being examined. When they examined him, what a shock for everyone! His cancer had reduced so much that it had even left the lymph nodes which was huge since the doctor said that if the cancer ever reached the lymph nodes we would know it was severe. Not to mention God had done a huge miracle in our entire family and circle of friends! my father had a huge awakening that it was time for him to mend his relationships with those he had quarrels with and also to unite our family as one, again to our surprise this was happening all so quickly and awesome! my father had mended relationships with people he had not spoken to in years!! and our family had a time of huge repentance, restoration and unity! Life Continues.
Although we were on a miracle high, we were greatly tested. In that same month my father had a time of reflection and at points battled with the option of continuing his chemo sessions or stopping altogether. He consulted everyone he felt had wisdom and those who he really cared about. Some believed that he needed to stop because if God did a healing why would he need chemo? others believed in continuing, because even if God had healed him what would be the harm in believing God would take the rest away through chemo? and others didn't know what to believe but regardless would support whatever he decided. He missed 2 sessions in total and went back. It wasn't until the end of October when he resumed his chemo sessions that he began to feel worst and was then admitted to the hospital. That week was the hardest week of my life! my husband was gone to Yellowknife for work, my in laws were gone on vacation, my other in laws were gone for missionary work, one of my brothers was preparing to go on vacation and in this time. I was in anguish, desperation and yet still holding on to the little faith I had. While in the hospital they took tons of fluid out of my dad's lungs and had him rested, things quickly progressed and before you know it was November, we were told he was not going to leave the hospital till he got better, and later we got news he wasn't going to get better and it would be his last week. my mother and I never left his side for the next 3 days, we then got news that it would only be about two days that he would survive. I will never forget those days, they were probably the most memorable days I've had to spend time with my dad, I remember when he would say "sweetie can you read to me?"and I would read books about healing and peace, we would put on soothing music and we would pray and join in prayer with his room mate, sometimes we wouldn't even talk but he would look at me and just smile while holding hands and just enjoy the stillness. In that short time we lost my father, but heaven gained a great man, husband, father, preacher, friend, brother, uncle grandfather, worker. hardest month of the year; Life Goes.
What more to say other than that December and January was the hardest holidays we've ever had to go through. There was a lot of questioning God about life itself! we were however still thankful that my father passed away without cancer, although it was pneumonia and that we had no doubt he entered into the pearly gates of heavens; Little did we know that God was busy at work without our knowledge. Until January 1st, feeling a little nauseous and weird I thought it might be a good idea to check if i'm alright physically, took a pregnancy test and saw a positive! and having battling just lost someone so dear to my heart, almost getting into an accident that would take away my life, I was reminded that Life still comes & continues.
so we come to today! some days we battle with the loss, some days we celebrate the coming of a new life and some days we just try to take it day by day. If you get anything today please get this, our life is not in our hands (if you didn't realize by now) there is no way that we could have controlled my dad living longer, getting healed sooner, having a baby sooner so that she could see her grandfather. Although we as humans are so eager to have things the way we want them, God knows better. Our lives are in the hands of an unseen God. what makes life so fragile and so important is that we seriously need to trust in GOD, and that even requires faith. You may be reading this and thinking, "but so many bad things have happened in my life already, why would I need to trust in a God who allowed this?" my only answer is this... If he already knows whats going to happen 5 minutes from now, tomorrow, a month from now, a year from now, 10 years from now, why would you NOT trust in God anyway? He knows how much you can handle, he knows what you will go through and he knows how this will affect you. In this year already I have decided to walk my life day by day trusting in God and being thankful. Since I have no control, I might as well be happy by the blessings in my life and be trusting that the hard things in my life God already has in control. I want to live my life as it comes with faith, as it goes knowing that I trusted in God and as it continues being faithful in obedience.
done.....
Patty
