ugh....

well for our friends and family out there...if your wondering about what my fb status is all about.....phil and I went to the border and Phil was denied entry into the United States...needless to say we are now praying for Plan B and C and maybe even D....we need your prayers greatly. This is totally hard..it has really been a hard learning process but when you are in the Will of God and you know that God has your back you know that everything will somehow work out according to His will...and I know for a fact that God has some huge plans....! this all to be honest though stinks...phil and I are mixed emotions....

Its real.

just a random thought first (food for the soul)

one of the greatest battles of all christians and even those who arent is TRUSTing God. and even when we say we do...it is never enough. Let me tell you why. Because God is always looking for ways to have you trust him more!.... and the more that you can trust him the more he can bless you and entrust you with it. so what makes it so hard for us to trust Him? the fact that its mysterious, the fact that it may not go the way WE want to, the fact that we are not in control. And to be truthful i can sit here writing on my dell laptop and say Yes I do trust God and the moment I say it I feel in my heart that there is still more I could trust Him with but I don't yet......Thats why I love God because this relationship could never get boring.

okay so anyway

....packing what a pain and what a joy...while my husband and my dad fix my very old but still chugging along car I am packing my very girlie room...realizing I am leaving my childhood behind....not the memories but the stuff...all the teddies all the memorabilia its so weird to me. I feel so Grown up!....hah....maybe cause I am....weird!

-this post.

patty ALEXANDRE woot woot!

Phil's first post!!!! Here we GOOOOOOO!

Well Patty is no longer a Ms., but has graduated into the Mrs. category... and better yet, she's MY Mrs!

God has definitely pulled through with everything. I give thanks to Him because of all the generous people in our lives ya know? We've been blessed with so much, not necessarily money or materialistic things, but love, peace, and family/friends. We have such great friends and I am so thankful for them all. It really is a bitter sweet time in my life though. Only recently I've gotten closer and began to really want a relationship with my cousins, and I'm leaving. It's a little unfair, but I hope they understand that if I stayed, they'd be in my favorite 5 (cell phone commercial).

Well, in the next two weeks we will be packing up all our belongings. It's kind of weird actually... taking all your possessions like all the elementary paintings, teddy bears, piano recital rewards, a small mountain of model cars, and of course my shelves of soccer trophies... Everything. But it's okay. The more I think about things, the more grateful I am. I get to start a life of my own... well, our own... with all the stuff I had. It's like starting from scratch... but not really. An adventure for sure!

I don't know what else to say. Patty told me to give this a shot so I did. Oh... well, since the last morning of the honeymoon, my stomach has been rotten! I haven't been able to really keep things down too well... well, maybe down is the wrong word... more like IN... ha ha ah... if you get my drift. I began writing this on the couch, and am finishing on the John (gross? whatever... you facebook addicts do it... I know it!) because I'm in a bunch of pain. Not enough to go to the hospital, but enough to be really irritating.

To finish, the next couple weeks are going to be hectic and I'm trying to keep my head on straight, but you know what... If God is in control, all I have to do is my part, let Him do His, and everything will work out. Like Jesus said (in the PLT [Phil's Literal Translation]), "Don't freak out about tomorrow because tomorrows messed up too... focus on today and God'll get you through!" Matthew 6:34... ish... ha ha ha...

God's great, Friends are good, and life is going.

Peace,

Phil Alexandre